clairedarko

Hello there. It's been a while... I'm writing today 'cause I'm having these suicidal thoughts and I don't how to deal with them. Like... The only thing I can do is write and that can't help me right now. My parents are broke and they're putting their hopes on me, but I feel like I can't do that, I'm not being able to find a god damn job because I'm to weird for the normal people. I want to work, I really really do, 'cause now I feel like  I need my things, my independece... My life. But I can't do it. There's always something to put me down or make my brain goes to the dark side or something. And, of course, I can't talk about that with my p

Hi guys, I don't know what to do now. My only sure is writing, so... Here I go. I left college, kicked everything out and... I regret nothing, 'cause I never choose that course in the first place and right now... I don't know what to do with my life. I don't even know why I'm alive for being honest. All the people have their goals, things they want to do. It's find love, get rich, have a good job, live well... I don't want any of this. And the weirdest thing is that makes me sad. So freaking sad. I can't talk to my parents about that 'cause they wouldn't understand. I feel so... Trapped here. Like chains starting to lock me up with the othe

Hey guys, did you miss me? Well... Probably not LOL I'm here to tell you that... I got a job few weeks ago, was... Nice, but I stay only one day because I feel that the thing wasn't right for me, ya know? XD Was at a school, with little kids. They were adorable, really. I like kids, but wasn't enough for that job. So I quite on Monday. It was funny because everybody here at home were all freaking excited about it. But I wasn't. Was the first time that I feel part of something. And I hated. The adults are just... Weird. Not my kind of weird, they're just... Hopeless, sad and don't believe in nothing. They can't see how beautiful is a sunset